" IF I "

"Love is blind"
or so said shakespeare.
If he hears my end of the ordeal,
he'll turn in his grave!!
If i...could turn yesterday back around,
since i know how i feel
about you now.

I have a choice though,
and the decision is mine...
I stay or i leave!
If i stay...i perform!!
a performance of a lifetime!
If i leave... i leave for good!!

If i could turn back time,undo the done,
maybe then i would see the clear picture.
if the choice is mine,
which it is...
I'd choose to leave,
since i choose you!

Pretence is an art,
and i refuse to learn it.
since i choose you,
i choose to leave.

Being with you,
i can't be...the old me!!
things have changed,the end is here.
i'll never be...the old me!

"ODE TO THE INDIAN RAILWAYS"

Sudden breaks,
which wake the asleep,
cockroaches by the dozen,
promising you...
of a tough night ahead!!
My quilt smells,
like something has been living in it previously!
the pillow promotes,
some sort of hair oil.
The curtains add luxury,
to my misery!!
the man sleeping in front of me...
can wake the dead city of Mohenjodaro!!
I look out of the window,
the giant crack doesn't help much.
The floor is clean...
and clean are the rest rooms,
now there is a true surprise!!

"MAN WAS A BOY"

Once i knew a happy man,
his happiness was his biggest curse.
he had a book of memories,
with many pages still unwritten...
things unsaid,unplanned.
man was a boy,deep inside...
like all of them are!
close your eyes
in order to see,
beyond what's visible.
pride...love...sex...chasing cars,
its the same "ball"game!
man was a boy,deep inside...
and he never grew up!!

"FIREFLIES"

Flickering around like
deemed ideas
standing still...broken.
Breathing light...
on a bedspread of colours,
up on the faith hill,
in the big sky,
with every tingling feeling
fireflies...take my wish,
my burning dreams
and give them meaning!
A slow and steady rush
marks your presence,
demanding attention.
Pave the path,
the way you want,
gothic or gospel.
fireflies...take my wish
and my burning dreams
be strong,cest la vie!

"CRASH INTO ME"

Its been amazing,
these past few days.
walking on sunshine,
being happy and;
for a change
not feeling guilty about it,
its usually hard to hold on.
My heart and head
speak in languages alian to me.
I have eloped with my deams,
reality,just too "dry"
"dry" for its own good
each moment of this...
glorious day passes me by,
whispering sweet nothings,
in my ears and head.
The wind blows through
my hair,reassuring me
of my beauty!!
the way its never done before,
this wind...plays naughtouriously
with my memories
and throwing flashbacks at me...
crash into me....
come into me...and in a vague momentum
setting me free.
Setting me free from "suppose to be"
words i detest the most!
i'm a special person
so why should someone else be like me?
my ideas crash into me....
my thoughts crash into me....
my values crash into me....
my loved ones crash into me...
i crash into time,
and my past questions me.
I must be demented to be delighted,
in a situation like such!
this freedom i have newly gained,
doesn't compromise my dignity.
I like it here!
I like "this"
crashed into me or not...
someday it will...
like everything else did and does!!

"TO YOU I BELONG"

I opened my eyes to her
was feeling rather queasy
she came and looked at me
smiled and said "wow"
she ended up being the closest in a row.
She went away,
but came back for me.
a little talcome
that was always welcome!
she was really nice,
gave me her stuff,
i on the other hand
put it in my mouth.
Babbling idiot that i was...
perfection as i knew it,
and always will,
my ena...to you i belong!!

"I FEEL LIKE AN INSIGNIFICANT SPECK"

Sitting here on the banks
of ivory colured waters
i can feel everything
yet feel so numb.
these waves come and go as though,
taunting me and my size
against its own
i choose to ignore...
i wish i could
but it doesn't let me!
i feel like an insignificant speck.
the voice inside me tells me things...
and so does this sea!
amalgamation of thoughts
speaking volumes of silence
i'll find my way...i guess.
i'll shout back someday
irony is that,that i know
its never going to change
this sea will always be bigger than me
but maybe just maybe someday when i know my worth
i wont feel as insignificant as i do now!