"FIREFLIES"

Flickering around like
deemed ideas
standing still...broken.
Breathing light...
on a bedspread of colours,
up on the faith hill,
in the big sky,
with every tingling feeling
fireflies...take my wish,
my burning dreams
and give them meaning!
A slow and steady rush
marks your presence,
demanding attention.
Pave the path,
the way you want,
gothic or gospel.
fireflies...take my wish
and my burning dreams
be strong,cest la vie!

"CRASH INTO ME"

Its been amazing,
these past few days.
walking on sunshine,
being happy and;
for a change
not feeling guilty about it,
its usually hard to hold on.
My heart and head
speak in languages alian to me.
I have eloped with my deams,
reality,just too "dry"
"dry" for its own good
each moment of this...
glorious day passes me by,
whispering sweet nothings,
in my ears and head.
The wind blows through
my hair,reassuring me
of my beauty!!
the way its never done before,
this wind...plays naughtouriously
with my memories
and throwing flashbacks at me...
crash into me....
come into me...and in a vague momentum
setting me free.
Setting me free from "suppose to be"
words i detest the most!
i'm a special person
so why should someone else be like me?
my ideas crash into me....
my thoughts crash into me....
my values crash into me....
my loved ones crash into me...
i crash into time,
and my past questions me.
I must be demented to be delighted,
in a situation like such!
this freedom i have newly gained,
doesn't compromise my dignity.
I like it here!
I like "this"
crashed into me or not...
someday it will...
like everything else did and does!!

"TO YOU I BELONG"

I opened my eyes to her
was feeling rather queasy
she came and looked at me
smiled and said "wow"
she ended up being the closest in a row.
She went away,
but came back for me.
a little talcome
that was always welcome!
she was really nice,
gave me her stuff,
i on the other hand
put it in my mouth.
Babbling idiot that i was...
perfection as i knew it,
and always will,
my ena...to you i belong!!

"I FEEL LIKE AN INSIGNIFICANT SPECK"

Sitting here on the banks
of ivory colured waters
i can feel everything
yet feel so numb.
these waves come and go as though,
taunting me and my size
against its own
i choose to ignore...
i wish i could
but it doesn't let me!
i feel like an insignificant speck.
the voice inside me tells me things...
and so does this sea!
amalgamation of thoughts
speaking volumes of silence
i'll find my way...i guess.
i'll shout back someday
irony is that,that i know
its never going to change
this sea will always be bigger than me
but maybe just maybe someday when i know my worth
i wont feel as insignificant as i do now!

"I SIT,I WATCH...MEMOIRS OF A TELEVISION"

Everyday i stay here
pretty much from the first time i was brought
haven't moved an inch in years.
i've had a good life
somedays i work hard and long
and somedays nobody bothers to switch me on.
i sit,i watch!!
The little girl plays with my keys
puts it in her mouth and drulls
i see her take baby steps towards me
then with all her little might
delt me a soft blow.....
she looks at me in antisipation,waiting patiently.
i sit,i watch!!
The father takes control...
god i hate him!
just doesnt seem to give it a rest
surfing through most of my alternatives
he's the mighty lord of the pests!
i sit,i watch!!
The mother is sweet
or so she seems
watch's commercial of soaps and creams
cries and laughs at the same time...
and calls me "the idiot box"
i sit,i watch!!
Though all my fondness is for the lady
who visits me every morning
she doesnt want anything from me
but cleans me like..i'm her own!
i sit,i watch!!
Years have passed since....
feelings have changed
if you dont grow you die.
my life's "full stop"
seems to have arrived!
i sit,i watch!!
In a matter of time
i shall say...
i sat,i watched!!

"A LITTLE LOVE STORY"

so they sit together in class,
exchange notes and shots.
full in uniform,
and high on charm.
he loves her...she loves him too,
but maybe....just maybe
she's too stupid to admit it!
the curse of the situation and
a little lovestory!!
however everybody
considered it forbidden
like they cared!
the boy dipped in vodka and gin
while the girl's in pretty pink...
a little lovestory
considered forbidden...
had no beggining and no end
was a distraction of a sort
but had it own charm...
the little lovestory!!

THERE IS A REASON....

There is a reason,
why sex rhymes with ex,
there is a reason,
why there is a silver line
after every dark cloud.
there is a reason,
why metabolism is such a bitch.
there is a reason,
why certain smells do the things they do to you.
there is a reason,
why fear is the key factor...
behind love.
there is a reason,
why you missed a flight.
there is a reason,
why "fat" is special,
its just a different way of life.
there is a reason,
why a child was born.
there is a reason,
for everything...
you just need to find yours!!

"BATTLEFIELD"

I've become so use to it,
its been a habit,
but now i'm ready to give up,
my shield and my sword,
the battlefield!
My war is long and endless,
i will willingly give myself,
but now i'm tired,
human i am afterall,
the battlefield!
My anatomy doesnt permit me,
forever doesnt exist!
only time will tell,
if there is a break...to this vicious spell,
the battlefield!
All things new and nice,
shall be old and worn,
dear god,come take a walk with me....
see what miseries are like,
listen to all the stories told,
the battlefield!
I'm a warrior,a spartan,
here on my own trojan war,
fighting time and wrong,
evil is always followed by good,
the battlefield!
someday i shall parish and leave victoriously...
but never will my search end,
never will i give it a rest!!

"REDEMPTION"

The small have proclaimed the big,
my abuses have turned into a major gig,
all that was lame,
has suddenly become known and famous,
THIS IS MY REDEMPTION!!
The time of struggle has passed,
now is when i enjoy,
my sweet revenge...
Every wasted emotion,
seems to have paid off!
Mayebe it wasn't such a bad thing afterall.
THIS IS MY REDEMPTION!!
But like all good/bad things,
this too shall pass...
and i shall get back
to my old neutral self.
Time waits for nobody,
what's so special about me?
Maybe...i'm just not use to it,
yet i know..time will heal it all,
time will always tell.
THIS IS MY REDEMPTION!!
and i've waited long,
just when i was tired,
ready to give up,
kneeling down on my surrender...
it snapped..fortunately for me.
THIS IS MY REDEMPTION!!
and "I" "DESERVE" every bit of it.
i've finally broken free,
i found a new set of wings.
i will always stay...
like it or not..i always will.
its a long,bumpy ride ahead,
the fun's just getting started,
my patience has paid off!!
THIS IS MY REDEMPTION!!

"?"

Are these just words?
Do they actually mean something?
the whirlpool of time,
is sucking me in,
and there's nobody to rescue me...
Do i need rescue?
sometimes i feel like
i'm stuck in quicksand,
the more i riggle,
the deeper i sink!
complications,which are unnecessary,
have taken centre stage,
and knotted my life,
so tight this time...
there's nobody to unknot me....
Do i need rescue?
i feel the constriction,
bonds and chains,
which i've compelled on myself!
everything i've ever known,
seems to have deserted me,
common sense suddenly not very common!
My conscience seems abandoned,
certain questions desreve answers...
there's nobody to answer them for me....
Do i need rescue?
Life is a mess,
maybe i do....maybe i dont!!
chess is a complicated game..
no wonder i never enjoyed it!
life is feeling kinda strange...strange enough these days!

"BLUE JEANS"

They are not just pants,
they are an investment,
bound to be with you,
in your rage against time,
just like you,
fading and ripping,
still holding on.
They are not just pants,
its a bond,
a lifetime commitment!!

"I LIVE IN DENIAL"

Forget about the future,
dont worry about the past,
all i have is now,
that's what matters.
THIS MOMENT...LET ME LIVE!
i live in denial,
i see what's right in front of me,
listen to the clouds...
they assure me that its madness!!
the moon reflecting all that's sane,
i live in denial,
so close...i can reach out and grab,
yet so far in reality,
i'd like to declare.....
my wishlist...with you topping it all,
these are mere words,
life's ironic,
you know...i love you so,
and all the things you do.
my not so perfect life,
as though struck by...a revolting jolt of love!
passion,time and valentines were
words written in grey,
i was never too sure,
i live in denial!
this seems like a dream,
with everything perfect....
dont wake me up just yet,
THIS MOMENT...LET ME LIVE!
let me live my dream,
the one man i love,
he perfects the not so perfect me!
i live in denial....let me live!

"Tonight...i walk"

Tonight...i walk,
holding a glass of wine,
i have no one to talk to,
alone i sit and dine,
with giant walls that mock!

Tonight....i walk,
through the corridors of my past,
i have no regrets,
i sail with big masts,
of hope and dreams set!

Tonight....i walk,
to lands unknown,
i shall travel far,
destiny,to which i am prone,
reality to me is a constant war!

Tonight... i walk,
with no one to fall back on,
this fall isn't protected,
all i had,seems to be gone,
guess,wrong i detected!

Tonight...i walk,
to think and analyze,
baby steps i take,challenging time,
i shall slot and categorize,
going deep into my mind mine!

Tonight...i walk,
to dreams unexplored,
comfortable in my air bubble,
technically i descend lower,
an unfamiliar language i babble!

Tonight.....i walk,
never to turn back,
stocked with love and passion,
i got nothing to pack,
all i have is a big mission!

Tonight.....i walk,
to celebrate my new wings,
my journey's long,
aware of the troubles it brings,
I'll dance to my own song!

Tonight.....i walk,
i see the woman in me,
tortured adolescence seized,
she runs wise and free,
my soul is touched and pleased!

Tonight...i walk,
with a happy heart,
and i smile,
I've finally mastered the art,
no longer i remain juvenile!!

'the banger sisters"

Free is all you've got to be!!
visions of paradise,
chilled beer and fish well fried,
the mild essense of wild flowers,
wetness of the ocean in the air,
damp sand underneath our feet,
we dont need to go anywhere from here,
this is home.
the smell of burning coal and fish,
the face of our shack smiling in the candlelight!
in the middle of nowhere,
yet a sense if belonging...being.
"so we finally made it!"
our dreams,our stories...fish and beer,
bla...bla..bla...
"we are the banger sisters,
we're live and kicking!!"
a new day has come,
and so has the fresh catch....
we see...pause...turn...
"NICE!!for a change he is tall!"
we fall off our hammocks....laughing,
swearing at each other.
"we're the banger sisters,
and we're here to stay,
beer...fried fish and all!"
HAPPY EVER AFTER....ONCE UPON THESE DAYS!!

Once there was a girl....

Once there was a girl,who heard the birds sing in the middle of traffic jams and watch trees dance late into the blue night!she lived life on her own terms and that was officially the only rule she ever followed.
One day as she walked walked home through the traffic jams and the hustlebustle of the city she realized that the street she took everyday to save time as it was shorter was overflowing with dirty drainage water.since she did not want her precious kolapuri's to get damaged she decided to take the longer lonlier road.
The road was lovely,dark and deep.she was pretty much letting it all sink...considering it all new experience,when she heard the sound of an electric guitar.she forced herself to walk further but couldn't help following the sound.she entered the compound trying her level best to not make any noise,but as clumsy as she was she somehow managed to tip over a jar of whisky.she could hardly see in the darkness and what she din't know was that she was being watched since what felt like forever.
She was poking her nose around to see when the door swung open and she knew it was too late to turn back!as she entered the door she saw her life pass by in snapshots.the further she went in the louder the music got.now she stood in the doorway of a narrow hall and had no choice but to walk in,which she knew she would.
As she walked in,she smelled something which reminded her of a boys locker room..filthy and disgusting.she went closer only to see a a dog with a collar saying "spot" on it.her breath almost stopped and her heart took a giant leap....she knew someone was standing behind her.she turned around to see...a man,a big man,with long hair tucked behind his ear,in leather pants and a green jacket.he walked up to her and she froze!!
The silence was shattering...finally with swift movement he came closer and she could smell food!in a sweet voice asked her...
"do your feet stink?"
"what?!!"
"do your feet stink?"he asked again,
"no i wear kolapuri's!"she said,
"oh!do you know someplace where i could find my size?"
"i think so...depends on how big your feet are!"
"big enough" he said,
"well you know what they say about men who have big feet?"she smirked,
"no what?"he says,*evil grin*
"they can never find shoes that fit them"
They laughed and both knew very deep inside almost at the pit of their tummy's this was bound to happen....destiny.that's when the record moved and played "nothing else matters" and for some vague reason they both knew nothing else did matter!!

MORAL:Take a chance..

Life's a full circle...

"Misery likes company",
i like the way that sounds,
life's a full circle,
what goes up must come down,
he wants it,but he doesn't.
oh!for god's sake stop going in rounds!
out of reach,
keeping busy everyday,
so confused my heart's screwed,
i never really loved you anyways...
i'm not angry,just surprised,
two eyes..a dream..and a story,
little bit of cloud,a little bit of rain,
should i..should i not?
i listen to "cool jazz"
feeling kinda blue,
it suddenly hits me...i fell in love too soon...
i'd like to blame it on the weatherman,
but i blame it on myself!
i stand here all alone,
talking about a revolution..a change,
missing you in every heartbeat,
i see you,
in one of the grains of sand,
which gets blown around the world,
it settles nowhere,but here with me,
i need to get out of the dungeons of my past,
i need to run free...
life's a full circle,
what goes up must come down!!

i beg your pardon..Mr.Right??

Perception is what you percieve of a notion.like the famous saying goes.."a thing of beauty is a joy forever!"we ladies are not only beautiful but also a gorgeous creations of god.since we talking about "perceptions" today lets talk about Mr.Right,ya ya the guy your mum and mine have told us about.there seems to be a right time for everything and a Mr.Right for every girl.but,in majority of the cases in india,when we eventually end up meeting our respective Mr.Right,little do we know that his first name is "Always".

We read newspapers,magazines...comeon its almost considered a lament to do so.it can be very entertaining if read avidly.it is one perfect form of continious fiction.come to think of it we are called the "weaker sex" and then we are also called "the weapon of mass distruction".why is that nobody seems to be able to make up their minds once and for all?why is that we have to be at the recieving end of most of the comments or even jokes for that matter?

I've often heard "this is a man's world" and us being the "weaker sex" and all that jazz have to compramise.where does the problem really lie?with us women...the answeris right here and is staring into our faces.we women are always compramising so the men live the way they always have and make no amendments what so ever...in their lives while our lives remain nothing like it use to be.

Why are we always made fun of?

Its pretty simlpe...we let them do it..we let them take us for granted!!

Men:whose minds are like the welsh railways-one track and dirty!!!

I'd like to conclude now....

a little word of advice for all those fantastic ladies who've just been uplifted and think..feel better about themselves..................

"Look wise,say nothing,and grunt.Speech was given to conceal our thought."

SHE SAYS....

"i need to get this done at once"she says,
"its bothered me far too long"
sitting amidst a pile of dirty clothes,
seperating the right from the wrong.

"i like the sounds of night"she says,
clearly helps her think,
loves to be asked questions by stranger,
"do your feet stink?"

as she walks into the world,
i see her make a difference,
touch people's lives,she say,
"i like the taste of detergent!!"

expect utter nonsense coming
when she charges like an angry bull,
opens her mouth,she says,
"damn i'm outta wool"

' "look at the stars,look how they shine for you"' she says,
and i sing along,i watch her carefully,
playing with her hair,stops suddenly,she says,
"i want to fart"very gracefully!

she's my angel undercover,
"ya right"she says,
i keep my mouth shut,
listen to her ranting and raving about the size of her "butt"

i see her with children,
and see the biggest one of them all,
tried tellin her this,she says
"woman!you have some gall"

well that's her,
"its me"she say.....